So I've been thinking a lot. About life, death, and all that's in between.. What if I don't want to get old? I mean, I don't want to wake up one day, realize I'm 80 and think back to the days when I was young and know that I'll never be like that again.. I wish I could just stop aging at 30 but still die in 70 years or so. Also, I don't want to see the people I love die away before me..
Another thing that's been on my mind that ties in with all this life and death ranting is Destany and I. I know it'd be rad to die together, but the chances of that are small. One of us will die first.. I want it to be me because I don't want to handle her death, but at the same time I don't want to put her through the pain of losing me. So.. I want to die last, because she will never have to be alone again. I just worry. I worry what I would do if I lost her and I worry what she would do if she lost me. I mean anything can happen.. I could get hit by a car tomorrow and die, or get kidnapped and never see her face again.. I would die. and I'm not even exaggerating. I can't live without her. I refuse to be afraid of death because I refuse to live my life in fear. I'd much rather tempt death by living life to it's fullest. I guess the moral to this thought is just live like you're gonna die tomorrow and you'll die knowing you lived a great life. I know it'll be a while before I'm 80, but that doesn't stop me from being kidnapped and shot or hit by a car or robbed and stabbed in my house.. Anything could happen.. I wish I was with Dest.. =\