All I have to write is simply I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for losing the perfect chance and I'm sorry for everything I have done... and for everything I haven't done.. I'm just sorry.. I love you so much and I wish I could go back in time. I would do it all over again. I just didn't think you wanted me to.. I just wanted you to look up so I know it's okay. I'm just.. I'm sorry.. and there is nothing I can do to fix it. I love you..